Thursday, February 19, 2009

Pressure?

Ugh.
schools and careers.
careers and schools.
jobs? homes? apartments?
college O.o


Super difficult.
I've never been under so much stress.


But it'll all be worth it in the end, no?



Good Luck to all.
:DDD


I sure need it!

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

New Boy.

It's always best to not rush into other relationships after you've just finished one you were in. You should keep your options opened, and have many friends. If you were to find that "special" guy that catches your view, then take some time to get to know him. Because in the end, he might not be what you thought he was, and I speak from personal experience.

Story :DDD




A little over a month ago, My ex and I broke up, obviously "ex."
He was a big mistake, I've learned now. But it was also my own fault in not getting to know him better than I probably should have. And I"ve learned from that now, with a new guy.

So this "new guy", that's what I'll call him, seems like a very descent boy. We talk everyday, practically, and I'm starting to have a "thing" for him. But I am taking my time in doing so.

He seems to like me, and I hope he does.

Our issue is we dont live that close to eachother, and we don't go to the same school. I'm willing to make it work, if he is. When the time comes, anyways...

The question is: Will this work?

Although I do believe anything in relationships will work as long as the couple want it to. Once they give up, then it's over.


Blahh, good luck?
I don't think distance is much of an issue.
Do You?

Monday, January 26, 2009

Moving On; Understanding Friendship and Flirting.

Moving on is something really hard to do, because you will always see that person as someone "special."
But once its over, its over.
If people do get back together, well good for them. But there will always be this certain "weirdness" between them because they've already broken up before, it'll seem like second nature the second time. No?
I know this from personal experience, it just wont be the same anymore, which is a real shame, cause some people DO deserve second chances, and some just dont.

So, story for today :))

I used to "date" this guy. He's a bit older;blah blah blah. We just hung out, made out a few times. And yeah. I kind of had a thing for him, but I didn't want to get into anything at the moment. So when he asked me out, I said no because I only saw him as a friend. He was a bit disappointed, but later moved on.

Now, he has a gf, and I'm happy for him, so on.
So he and I still talk, cause we're friends of course, friends do that kind of stuff. :))
I talk to him about guys and such, and he's never seemed to have an issue, till today. I told him that one of my friends told me he liked me, and I kind of like this friend as well. Then my friend got all mad/disappointed, etc. After I told him that, he said he didnt know what to say. I didn't really understand why he was acting this way, should he? I mean, he and I are just friends. I don't th ink he should. He thinks maybe its a bad idea for me to date my friend, but whatever, thats on me.

So...
Whose doing something wrong in this case?
The guy says I "play with his mind"... am i?
I know my boundaries; maybe he just doesnt understand that I'm being a "friend" not flirty.
*sigh*

I hope he understands.

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Don't Judge Me.

We're at that point in our lives where everything matters to us.
our looks.
our weight.
our style.
music.
even the people we date.

the question is, why?
Why do we care what people think? Are we not all supposed to be unique?
The whole idea of trying to hard to fit in, when you're meant to stand out seems stupid.
just be yourself?
wow, sounds like a good idea, doesnt it...?

So...
I've made some mistakes in my life, from small ones to huge ones that I regret so much but at the same time don't because they have made me who I am.
My ex, who by the way became one of my closest friends, knows more about me than anyone. I've told him so much, and maybe that was a mistake?
So he and I were talking today, blahblahblah, and I told him that I was seeing and older guy. And the idea of me seeing older guys makes him somewhat "angry." And I told him not to be silly, I'm not that stupid. To my surprise, he told me I was. He says that I've done so much stupidity, that's its just normal for me.

Out of all the people who judge me, I never thought he would. I opened up to him. And this is what happens?
I feel stupid.

The real questions to all of this is:
Who did wrong here, him or I ?
Am I doing something wrong dating an older guy?

Blahh.
I don't see him the same anymore, he's just not my Best guy friend any longer.
Is that wrong?

Help; if you can.
:D

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Relationships.

Blahh.
huge hassel.
but trust me, the morose feeling is mutual.
we all get that feeling of "nobody wants me, im alone in the world," its common with us teens. but you shouldnt be depressed about it, thats so pathetic. be happy that your even alive, and be thankful for all that you have. you won't die because the cutest boy in school dumped you. (so cliche, i know, but the best example?)

If you are, now, between the ages of 13-17, why are you in such a hurry to grow up? Believe me, I may sound like a parent, but I'm being completely honest. Stop it! You're so young. Let time take its course, and do everything at the "perfect moment," don't ruin it. For life does not end tomorrow. Tomorrows are just another adventure.
~~~~Let it be.

Enjoy life, have tons of friends! Be flirty, not slutty.
And think, dont react out of nowhere.
That will get you...nowhere, actually.

We're too young to have all the stress for someone you're not planning on marrying.
So relax...your just a kid.